FaithNR,
What an excellent question. I retired early and was diagnosed with cancer shortly thereafter. I pay for private insurance—something I had prepared for during my retirement planning—because even though I considered returning to work just for the health benefits, I have absolutely no desire to re-enter the workforce.
I lost that aggressive drive post-cancer. If I went back now, I know I would just be going through the motions.So, I truly understand where you are coming from.
I am forever changed by cancer; my priorities, my view of life, and my perspective on those in my inner circle have all shifted completely. I have become much more peaceful, and I have intentionally slowed down to savor my time here on the planet. I find that I deeply value quiet moments over the hustle and bustle. I am far more contemplative than action-oriented now, and I actively avoid people, places, and things that are not conducive to my peace.
Please give yourself permission to protect your peace, too. It is quite natural and normal to feel the way you do. Wishing you all the best.

I agree that this diagnosis changes you in so many ways. I was 3 years away from retirement when I was diagnosed 3 years ago. I had to miss a lot of work because of surgeries, chemo, and an infection, but I stuck it out and am now counting down the days. I committed to a few extra months to help out at work, but now that my grandbabies (twin boys) were just born prematurely, I wish I hadn't kept working. Even though they will be in the NICU till after my retirement (I have only 6 weeks left), work doesn't feel as important anymore. I think that when we go through traumatic life events like these, it's family and finding time to be with our loved ones that takes priority. Work can be comforting for some, but the added stress it has put on my life makes me feel like it has indirectly been the reason for so many of my health issues, including my BC diagnosis. I feel I will be able to rest better, worry less, and get off my anxiety medication when I retire. Thankfully, retirement will be soon.

Great question. Cancer changes all of us to some degree, more for some than others. Just living your best life becomes very important. You find out who your true friends are. You embrace life differently on a daily basis because you really do not worry as much about the little stuff. Sunsets are more beautiful, a beautiful day makes you breathe in the fresh air and smile like crazy and even the rain makes you happy. It's all good. You're just happy to be alive and doing well!! Wishing you the very best. Hugs!

Beautiful post!