This is how I remember to feel grateful after all we’ve been through. Sometimes just being alive is enough. I’m grateful it’s me and not my kids. Our body is just that - a body. While it’s mentaly, emotionally and physically taxing what we go through and what we are left with - we have to find a way to live life to the fullest each day. I’m grateful for my second chance at life and time to be with my kids and family - I remember the fear when I was diagnosed that this was the end. I’m grateful to have been able to have options like surgery to rid my body of the cancer - there are so many that don’t have that option. I’m happy to give up breasts for a lifetime of health and being a mom to my kids for as long as I can. I’m grateful it was just in the breast and not in other inoperable places in the body. So many women would give so much to be in our situation ❤️❤️ Wishing you peace and love. We are not our breasts. We are so much more. ☀️🥰

You will find answers to the difference in your body in good time. give it time, some people have accidents where they loose so much physically, some people are born with physical defects, etc. In my mind (and its my mind only) accepting the changes to my breasts took some time...acceptance or deciding what to do, do take time. It's all up to you. Congratulations on the first part of getting surgery to get rid of the cancer, that's a hard one when you think about it, yet you did.

I am not having plastic surgery but support any woman who decides to go ahead as each surgery outcome is different. (For me, my breasts seem not to match very well, oh well).

Keep us posted, your thoughts and feelings are always welcome here, and as the lucky ones, we should not cut our issues short due to feeling anything including surperficiality or guilt. I have journaled about this process and it brought me peace as I continued noting what my reactions were/are about every part of this unwelcome process.

Be Well!

So sorry. I understand how you feel now. Time makes things better. I’m a 20-year survivor. My feelings of anger, unfairness, mutilation and lasting effects have quieted down. I focus on quality of life now... doing things I enjoy, learning new things, avoiding stressful situations and surrounding myself with positive people.

You are not alone in this feeling. I’m right in the middle of it too. I’m 4 months post r mastectomy with immediate reconstruction. My feelings have come now that radiation is done, and things are healing. I have had feelings of hating the implant, hating the way it looks and doesn’t feel. The other thing i feel is numb - emotionally, not just at the surgery site. I’ve realized that I’m depressed and still emotionally grieving, and that it is okay for now to feel that. I’ve been so busy being treated (and fighting and hating every step of it) that now that I have nothing to focus on and I have to let myself go through all of the emotions of accepting what has happened. I think accepting this is going to be the hardest part of the past 6 months. All I can say is to give yourself some time. I hope it helps to know that others are feeling and thinking some of the same things.

I'm having difficulty too. After two lumpectomies, I had a double mastectomy two weeks ago. They put expanders in. I can feel the liquid moving around in my fake breasts. I even asked the doctor just to make sure I wasn't dreaming it. Yesterday I got my first fill. My skin over the expanders is very tender; I am feeling weird pressure in them and just do not feel right. I want to cry. And every time I say something to anyone, they just say, "Oh, you're one tough cookie," or "You'll get through this," or "It could have been worse." None of that makes me feel better--or even good at all. I want someone to listen to me, validate me and not brush me off. I want to feel normal; in so many ways I don't!